I had dd on my own and now she is 9. I am 39.
She is lovely but i have found it very tough as she is s fire cracker.
I think i need to have councelling about how i feel about motherhood. On one hand i know she has been the making of me and has grounded me, on the other i miss my freedom very much. I dont feel like im cut out for it much tbh and im gutted about that.
I really envy those who seem to love motherhood and arent bothered about having alone time and who will cry at the end of the holidays. I will be kind of happy to get time to sort myself out.
I now have a dp and have been with him nearly 2 years. Neither of us are desperate for more kids but i do love babies and love watching other people's.
At 39 im running out of time and i want to forge a new career and go back to uni. I sometimes think dp and i would have a lovely baby together.
Dd loves vabies and would be delighted.
But im not great at motherhood.
I guess im asking is it normal to ve really confused about having more kids and to grieve if you cant really have more under given circumstances.