Regular lurker/poster, NC for this.
I could not be failing more if I tried and believe me I'm trying so hard not to.
I'm starting to resent my children massively. They've had a fair bit of upheaval recently so I understand their behaviour being a bit off but this is like nothing I've ever seen before. Bedtime is the worst. They used to be asleep by 7.30, now it's always past 8 and often nearer 9. This isn't usual for them at all and it's really getting to me because it's now so stressful. My youngest Dd in particular is really struggling and she is just so horrible and often violent towards me. I'm at my wits end trying to deal with her temper tantrums and manage my other children.
Every day there's more arguments and a total disregard for anything I say or ask. It's just like walking through mud up a mountain and I find myself wanting to run away all the time. I do have support but it's not full time and my partner is their stepdad so although he does help I feel like he shouldn't have to wrangle my wayward offspring. I'm trying to remember that they're young and struggling and I need to support them but I'm losing a grip on my will to live. I find nothing about them enjoyable and I don't want to feel that way.