Is it my husband, or me, or something entirely different?

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Had my first baby in February and I feel completely shoved out of parenting. I know that sounds stupid.

He has always been very caring and attentive when I am ill so when I had awful sickness lasting pretty much through the pregnancy he was loving to the point of being a bit suffocating to be honest, kept telling me to stop work and rest and eventually I did. And so I was a bit fed up and at a loose end for several weeks.

Then after birth I felt nothing I could do was right, and now I just still months on feel like it's not right, like I don't love the baby properly. Wtf is wrong with me?

Postnatal depression, lovely. I have it too x

Nobody knows how its going to be with a first born - it is a shock to the system and everyone feels they are doing it wrong - i am sure that you are not! it was 20 years since i had my last, so not sure how much support from outside bodies is like these days - could you contact the midwife or health visitor for some advice?
how is your husband with the baby ? does he help you or just become frustrated ? ( mine was a bit like this at times, i was better on my own and i managed better without him around , but not everyone is like this of course) why do you feel pushed out? its so hard being a mum, i am sure that your doing great - its just a hard thing to guage at times and everyone parents differently too!

That very much sounds like postnatal depression - your GP should be your first port of call. I really hope you feel better soon OP, that sounds like a horrible way to feel.

There's nothing wrong with you; how you're feeling is totally normal. PND can be such a harsh thing to handle when you're still recovering from the changes a baby brings. Seek help, please, and do not ever feel guilty for your feelings.