We have a 3 year old DS and I've been struggling for some time with whether or not we should have another child. When I say "some time" I mean, since the first person made a glib comment about if/when we'd have another i.e. when we left the hospital and the midwife on duty said "see you in a couple of years for the next one."
I know we could absolutely look after another child, but what stops me (and it is me at the moment, as I'm not going to bring this up with DH until I know how I feel) is that I really, really, seriously and absolutely don't want to go through TTC and pregnancy again.
For some reason, it's only tonight that it occurred to me that we could possibly adopt. I know that you can't just dial up a baby and that's completely fine. Doesn't bother me at all. Actually, I'd rather not have a baby, tbh. In my head, I think we'd be more suited to dealing with a potentially troubled child than another pregnancy.
To be clear, I do not in any way think that adoption would be easy. Neither DH nor I shy away from challenges, and I don't mean that in a kind of adoption-as-something-to-achieve sort of way, and I realise it would be hard work in a way that I couldn't possibly understand until we experience it. But then, so is having your own biological child. I had no fucking idea what the hell was going on from the moment we started TTC until DS was about 18 months. Obviously I'm still making it up as I go along, but at least I'm comfortable with that now.
AIBU to think that adoption is a at least route to investigate? Or should I just be content with DS?