To act (and feel) like I'm in the first few months of mat leave?

[Heygirlheyboy]

My ds is 2yo my other dc is 5. I am still in my pyjamas- unusual- but I would crawl into bed to sleep at anytime of any day. I'm tired and unmotivated (toddler napping now, dc1 at a friend's) and have no interest in packing for an impending house move or even tidying away the lunch stuff. I know what I want to be: I want to be that person with the meal prep'd by 10am and the no screen kids-and I was, but I just can't keep it up. I feel like turning the to on all day and giving them junk-I won't. I want to eat well and exercise and get off my arse and get things done. But by bedtime I just want to eat chocolate on the couch. It's become a habit now and it's getting me down. If we're out and about it's easier but with moving, I am doing less to be available for all the various calls and callers. What do other sahms do all day? Definitely not cut out for this long term but starting to fear that when I go back to work I won't be able for that plus the dc too..

Anyone else feel like this?

Yes I do sometimes... also not built to be at home but it's best situation for now. I tell mysekf it won't be forever.
Yanbu

Are you waiting until your youngest is at school full-time to go back to work? I feel like this during the summer holidays (I work at a university so term time only) and if spend any protracted length of time at home - trapped and lonely. But then I suffer from depression too.

Could you go back to work part-time if ft childcare is the issue?

I am mostly a sahm (work very part timw) and you really need to treat it like a job to make it work. Ie get up at a regular time, get showered and dressed and ready for the day. Though I don't often have fixed plans I do have a loose idea the night before of whet I will do next day. Usually my four are up at six and had breakfast and dressed ready to go out by 8.30 or 9. Including me. We then (as it's holidays ) go to the park for the morning and a walk. If it were school time two oldest would be at school. Then i take younder onea ro park or toddler group. Home for lunch and then afternoon we do paints, garden, take the scooters out play a few games . Mostly in the late afternoon they watch TV whilst I get the house work done. Bed by 7.

This works for us, I really think you need to have some routine to your week days at least. It would be very depressing otherwise.