Will keep this as short as I can.
I've posted on here a few times about my situation in terms of my mental health.
I don't have a job at the moment and fucked up a job interview that I had this morning.
At the moment, just a few things that have been cropping up and that I'm really struggling to deal with:
Feel like I don't 'deserve' anything
Extremely indecisive
Feel kind of unloveable
Very anxious and nervous
Very self-conscious and self-critical.
I think that maybe the self-criticism has become a sort of self-defence mechanism, if that makes any sense, as it might be my way of pre-empting anything negative that people could think or say about me so that I can anticipate it and prepare for it.
I went to my GP about this last year and was referred by them for a course of CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) counselling.
The CBT course is done online, with review calls done over the phone with my counsellor. I completed the course a few months ago, and have a final review call coming up with my counsellor in a couple of weeks.
Although I have found the CBT course helpful in parts, I feel that, after thinking about it for a while, I really would find face-to-face counselling more helpful than phone counselling.
Would I be unreasonable to go back to my GP and ask them if I could be referred for face-to-facs counselling instead? This was an option when I was referred to them last year, but I chose he phone counselling instead because the waiting list was shorter.
The only thing is that I'm not actually based anymore near where my GP surgery is, as I've had to move out of the place where I was living when I first registered with the GP. I haven't registered with a new GP surgery yet as I haven't yet found a new place to live (I'm temporarily living with family).