To think I am pathetic

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I don't exactly want advice but get it in one place.

I grew up in a difficult family. Lots of material things but lots of unrealistically high expectations and scathing put downs when you didn't manage them.

I was lonely. I still am. I crave companionship but I don't know how to get it.

You're not pathetic at all, we all have our demons and most people don't live an idyllic childhood and life, although I know at times it's easy to think that

Have you ever had any counselling?

Yes, I'm not sure it helped really!

Do you have supportive friends?

Maybe try a different counsellor, some of them are shit, others are amazing

Sending you

You're not pathetic, life is hard, we grow up thinking everything will be better once we're adults and then it's a bit of a shock to realise it's not better, it's the same or sometimes worse

Are you me, OP?? I get the family thing.Cos you outwardly seem privileged people don't believe when you complain family life is really shit. I grew up in an affluent family but I also had a narcissistic abusive alcoholic mother.