Feeling very conflicted this morning. I finished work for a fortnights holiday last night, I am a single parent by choice of one DD aged 5. She is on her first long school holiday having just finished reception year. I work full time and we have a fab CM who she loves and who looks after her while I am at work. In past years we would have already been on a non-school holiday holiday somewhere warm with other friends who also have children but that hasn't happened this year. I have got some ££ in the holiday fund but am horrified at just how expensive everything is in the school holiday so am put off by that and the idea of 24/7 childcare alone. She can be quite clingy when I am around and wouldn't likely go off to kids club alone. All our other friends are away so there aren't many playmates about for her or me. I am feeling bad for feeling like this but I am thoroughly miserable at the prospect of entertaining my much loved daughter alone for a fortnight from home. I am jealous of the friends who are away and feel like slumping in front of the telly with gin.