I'm struggling a little right now, there's been a lot going on so I reached out to my MH team for support, I don't want to get out of bed or move or breathe. Lifes just so hard and I don't want to feel like this, I want to be better for my daughter, I love her so much she deserves better.
I phoned my CPN several times, couldn't get through at all so I left a voicemail. She got back to me over a week later, she only works three mornings a week so hadn't had time to see me/phone me back. Fair enough, but she's one of only two CPNs on the team and I can't see/contact the other apparently. Finally after almost two months I got to see her, she was unable to book a room somewhere private for us to speak and so we had to meet in a cafe which was incredibly awkward for me as I broke down and cried at the appointment. She also had to cut it short because of parking restrictions 
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The teams psychologist quit over a year ago, they wont transfer me to another team despite admitting I need to see psychology (PTSD, depression, anxiety etc). I had a referral to the teams psychiatrist who apparently only works one afternoon a week. This happens to be the only afternoon I can't change my work shifts round on and the doctors aren't willing to continue my prescription for my meds without psychiatrist input so now I'm back off my meds and the flashbacks/nightmares etc are worse.
I've had a phone call this afternoon from my CPN saying that she doesn't feel meeting in public is appropriate, but that the only way she can book a room anywhere is again the one day I cannot attend so she isn't willing to see me.
Surely if this team is unable/unwilling to see me and don't have the staff I need they should transfer me to another one? I'm on the edge, I can't cope and it feels like they are just shrugging their shoulders and brushing me off.