To not want to leave the house?

[calmday]

I've posted this in mental health but I'm reposting it here for more traffic.

I'm diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic. Untreated at the minute as I came off my antipsychotic.

I'm really struggling with leaving the house at the moment. I haven't been out since Saturday morning. Really anxious about it.

My DP doesn't work as he needed to give up his job to look after the children when I was in the psychiatric hospital for five months. He hasn't gone back to work cos I'm not well yet. He's supposed to be my carer.

I need to go out on Thursday to take DS for a haircut and pick up my prescription. I'm scared. I've asked DP to go instead but he refuses.

What do I do?

"I'm diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic. Untreated at the minute as I came off my antipsychotic. "

You cant stay inside forever, thats no quality of life for you or your family. Are there plans in progress for finding you another anti-psychotic that will work for you?

No there's not. My CPN thinks that the diagnosis is wrong, and so do I, so maybe I don't need an antipsychotic.

I have anxiety and depression so I know how your feeling right now I never leave the house unless I absolutely have to and even then it can take me up to 4 hours to get out the house just to go shopping but in the end I just have to push myself otherwise I would never go out. Pm me if you need someone to talk to.

Thankyou Shoot. Sorry to hear you're suffering with depression and anxiety too. It's hard isn't it?

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You're welcome calmday it's all about baby steps and only doing what you can manage that's what I find helps me some of the time I mostly just sit in doors all day when am having a bad day. It is extremely hard and it's a difficult thing for people to understand unless they are going through it. Have you thought about CBT I'm on the waiting list for it there is also a website that my doctor told me about where you do your own CBT it's all about breaking things down in to smaller manageable things. Also another good tip that I got off my doctor that I have yet to try is writhing a letter to yourself and putting it somewhere safe it's suppose to help you work out what is causing you so many problems so that you can work on it. Pm me if you need any more help or advice or just a hand hold. Hugs.

Thanks again Shoot. I've had CBT with the local mental health team and it didn't do too much unfortunately. I suppose I could pay for some more but I can't really afford it.

I'll try writing a letter to myself. That sounds like a good idea.

Ok maybe CBT is not the answer for you then I guess it's one of those things that isn't for everyone I have yet to start mine so don't know if it will help me or not. Yeah give that a try it might just help you figure out what's causing you so many problems. Good luck with everything I hope you get the help that you need and find an answer for what's going on. Hugs.

Thanks a lot Shoot.

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Do you have a garden to do a task or can you put the rubbish outside, think of a small task that needs doing first. What would you do if your partner was not there how would you look after the children.

I feel for you calmday, I suffer from anxiety, panic attacks, depression, ptsd, ocd and agoraphobia.

I lost my job through my illness and literally only go through the door if I have to, like this morning i had to go drs, I was anxious about leaving the house on my own as my DP had to stay home with DD. I panicked in the Drs waiting room and could not wait to go home.

I started doing little things in the garden like playing with my dog, watering the plants. I still struggle really badly to go out, my DP had to do school runs as i can't cope with too many people around me. I do online shopping as again i can't cope with all the people. I have managed once or twice to go to my neighbours for a chat who has the same illness as me that has helped.

It is hard and sometime you have to push yourself, but at the same time the littlest steps are the biggest acheivements.

Have you got a friend/family member that can maybe go with you for support?

It's hard, I understand. I have a psychiatric illness. My mood swings from one extreme to the next. One day/week i'll struggle to leave the house, the next i'll be out until 4am wanting to party and I can't calm down.

My mental health team discharged me after branding me a 'liar' and telling me 'nobody can possibly have mood swings like that'. They gave me anti psychotics for 3 months, then refused to prescribe me any more because I was a 'liar'. It took 9 referrals from my GP for them to even allow me to be seen by a nurse, to end up with that? I refuse a re-referral because there's no point, so this is how I live now.
I even lost my job and my friends because of it and i'm still in the wrong as far as they're concerned.

Can someone come out with you? for support?

Hope it improves for you

That's awful toastandbutterandjam.

How can anyone call someone a liar! I have been in situations where I'm being assessed and the way they look at me feels like they don't believe me which makes me paranoid even more wondering what they think of me and then I can up. It's horrendous!

toastandbutterandjam could you possibly have bi polar because they have mood swings like that don't they manic one minute and depressed the next kind of thing. I don't know am just guessing I'm no expert.

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Hi OP, sorry you're having such a rough time

I wonder whether it might be a good idea to take your antipsychotic whilst you're waiting to clarify what your diagnosis is. We use antipsychotics for anxiety too so it might help take the edge of the fear of leaving the house. Your call of course, just thinking that might help in the short term. If you've run out then maybe your GP could organise for your pharmacy to deliver them to you?

Governoress86 It is awful! I literally went for a follow up assessment with a junior doctor and a consultant. Consultant didn't turn up so decided they'd put a student nurse in the appointment instead and literally said 'no more prescriptions, nothings wrong, it's not possible, call this number if you want to die' - I wouldn't mind, but i've never even seen a psychiatrist!

shoot That's my first thought. It's what I think is wrong. On the first appointment, they said it was bipolar, then they said it was Borderline personality disorder, then narcissistic PD, then Histronic PD, then dependant PD then nothing. I do believe it is Bipolar though, you're right!

It does sound more like bi polar IMO just of what your symptoms are my NDN is the exact same and she is bi polar.

I have had some right people assess me and when I have felt like self harming, "MH nurses" have said if you really wanted to do it you would of by now.

It is shocking of some people's attitude towards MH these days

Did you actually get told to come off your meds, OP. I.e, did they refuse to prescribe? I find it very strange they told you come off the anti-psychotics immediately.

Governoress86 It is shocking! I found it bizarre that in one appointment, I was given almost all of the personality disorder diagnosis' (I still can't figure out where they came from!) and then went to "you're a liar" - when I read the symptoms of personality disorders, I don't see myself. I asked them how they came to the conclusion that I had Narcissistic personality disorder and the nurse simply said 'I can't discuss this with you as it could be damaging to your mental health'.

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I think it's more damaging to your MH by calling you a liar, because if that was me i would then start questioning myself thinking am i really making this up.

I don't get why people get these jobs of they don't actually care or understand.

Why is you partner -carer - refusing to help you?