Hi everyone.
Just feeling bad and looking for some reassurance or advice please.
I'm currently job-hunting (unemployed right now), and also recently moved out of a house-share after my rental contract finished.
Just before my rental contract ended, a very close relative (not DSis but similar) very kindly offered for me to stay with her and her DP while I find new accommodation. I moved in with them earlier this week.
She's going through a fairly stressful situation right now, as her and her DP are planning their wedding (two different celebrations for family and friends) to happen this month. One is happening fairly soon, and the other celebration will be abroad at the end of the month. They've basically planned everything, but just have some last-minute stuff still to tweak.
Added to the wedding planning, the relative is also going through stressful stuff at work (difficult colleague etc., increased workload because of this etc.)
She has been absolutely lovely and incredibly kind (as per usual), especially given that she is going through stressful situations.
Tonight, she really kindly offered to look over a CV and cover letter that I was submitting for an internship application tomorrow. She basically redid my CV for me, and it looks so much better now. I'm so grateful for this, and mentioned this to her. I then asked if she would mind reading over my cover letter. She said she would be happy to, and starting reading it.
When she started reading the paragraph about why I wanted to work for the particular company, she asked why I wanted to work for them as she didn't feel that my paragraph explained in enough detail why I wanted to. I couldn't really articulate this.
She asked me if I'd looked on their website to find out what they do (I had, many times), but I couldn't explain what they did. The details of what they do (communications consultancy) are fairly woolly on their website, and I was really struggling to explain.
She then got upset and a bit frustrated as, to her, it sounded as if I hadn't bothered to read through the website. We then went through the website together, and she was quoting different things that the company does from their website. I was then trying to still give reasons about why I wanted to work for them, and she said she didn't think they were specific enough.
I started to then draft a paragraph on why I specifically wanted to work for them. I knew she was tired and wanted to get to bed, and was obviously really stressed about everything. She asked me how I was getting on, and I panicked, so said that my paragraph wasn't 'perfect, wasn't finished and was still a work in progress', as I was worried that she'd say it wasn't good enough. She then said in a sort of resigned voice, 'fine, I'll leave you to work on your draft' and then went to bed.
This isn't really an AIBU (sorry). I'm just feeling really lonely and a bit shit. I don't really feel that there's anyone that I can talk to or offload to as she's so stressed about the wedding.
Thanks everyone. Prepared to be told that I'm being U.