To ask HOW you ltb

[Onlythehorses]

Did you walk out, ask him to leave?

Dont even know where to start!

Glad things are looking up for you.

I dont think I have a future to speak of.

Talk to us, there are lots of people here who can help

Of course you do!
And your children do too.
Tell me what you're scared of

This is my first post as I felt I couldn't read and run. It sounds like you've made up your mind you want out. That's brilliant the next stage is to plan it carefully. I was in an abusive marriage with young children so I know how you feel. Do you have a health visitor? If so reach out to her as she will be able to help you and keep you safe. Do you have family nearby who you can go to or friends? If not as pp have said you need to get a place at a refuge where he can't find you. Believe me once you leave him it will be a huge weight off your shoulders. Your children will be fine.

Hope you are ok OP. My suggestion is you don't LTB but get the Bastard out. You don't leave, he does. Keep safe.

I dont think it is possible until the children are much older. Time will tell.

I felt I would never be able to cope on my own (no dcs with him) the two incidents that made me realise I could were when I took a beating he was trying to give ddog who was a rescue dog and terrified and when I had a fall leading to an early mc when I hadn't even realised I was pg and the thought of having dcs with him terrified me. I realised that I had a lot of love to give and the secret grieving for the child no one knew about meant I actually wanted dc but there was a possibility of a future somewhere else. It took almost 2 years to get from that realisation to the end.