To please ask for help with anxiety because I can't cope anymore.

[Lostanxiety]

Name changed. I know this is the wrong place but I need the traffic.

Currently stumbling from one worry to another in full fight or flight mode.
(undiagnosed) is a Ocd is awful. Can't sit down and cleaning all day. Crying all the time.

Repeatedly fobbed off by GPs over the last fifteen years. At one point given propranolol which made me horrendously worse. That's the only thing I've ever been given. Hoping to get an appointment with yet a different GP next week

Going on holiday with kids soon and I cannot cope. I'm having panic attacks and been snappy with the kids about the flight, the airport and stuff and I know I'm ruining their excitement.

So much going on in my past which I won't go into masses of details of but awful marriage, sibling death, stupid decisions made in desperation.

I literally cannot cope anymore and if I didn't have the kids I would walk away and never look back.

Oh gosh, I feel for you. I have OCD and the best things to help were sertaline and cbt which really helped a huge amount.

Deep breaths. They really do have a huge effect on anxiety levels, even in acute situations.

I've heard other anxiety/depression sufferers say they hate this advice, but it works for me: repeat "this too shall pass." There will be a time when you aren't feeling like this, and look back on it as an unpleasant memory.

Obviously drugs are different for all of us, but citalopram works absolute wonders for me. I still have bad days, but most days I have normal anxiety levels. Please push the GP to try you on other drugs until you find something that works.

And give yourself permission to be selfish. Put your needs first for a while. As long as the kids are fed and safe, you can afford to do what YOU need to do to feel better.

Right, the most important thing you should know is that you will not always feel like this. You can and will get better.
You need to go and see your GP with a written timeline of your anxiety over the years and what you have tried to counteract it. Show them that this has gone on for 15 years and you need help.
I had crippling anxiety that peaked after DS was born and it took 9 months on citalopram and 10 weeks of counselling to understand my feelings and myself. For me it was intrusive thoughts that plagued me - OCD I was told it was, once I understood it through the counselling I learnt how to cope with it and my life changed.
You can do this, you are able to do it and in a years time you will look back and realise how much better you feel. Ask for counselling - some areas you can refer yourself without the GP. Good luck - Get the apt, first tiny step forward.

I'm another fan of citalopram, it worked wonders for my anxiety and OCD. I really was at the end of my tether when I went on cit and couldn't see away out of the way I was feeling. With in a couple of weeks I was like a different person, I know it doesn't work for everyone and the side effects are a bit rough. But it really made a massive difference to me.