To cut a long story short - the past 3 years I have cared for my nan and stepdad, who both sadly passed away from cancer. Fil was also diagnosed with cancer and is on palliative care at home now too, DP is now caring for him with his mum, He's not too bad right now, still walking around/eating etc but we all know its only a matter of time.
My dilemma is this - I need to get away, I've been through so much the past few years (not just losing family members but wont bore you all), My last holiday was 2009, Before he died my stepdad told us all to go away with the money he'd left us. Now ive spoken to dp about it and quite rightly he doesnt want to leave - completely understand this I couldn't either in his position.
But aibu to think of taking myself and ds off somewhere for a week - hes now 5 and has never been anywhere due to use either having no money of looking after family members, I'm in a position for the 1st time I could just go and book today and be gone tomorrow but i'm wrestling with what type of person leaves their partner while there parent is terminally ill - and then I think back to when my nan was dying a week before her death dp left to go to france for a weekend, leaving me with caring around the clock for her and a 3 yr old to look after - This is not tit for tat but it does stay on my conscious when I wonder if I should go or not. Ive not told dp my idea so not sure how he'd react - he'd actually probably tell me to go and be happy at least our ds is going somewhere.
So what would you do, take him or stay out of duty?