I have been trying to start an online business for about 6 months now but I find with two children (one of which never sleeps through the night despite being 2) , a partner who is disabled and a part time job I'm left with no time to Persue my dream. We dont rely on my income (what I earn gets taken off income support I get for being dh carer - brain tumour 10 years ago led to left sided semi paralysis so essentially he has limited use of the left side of his body) so if I left my part time job we'd be roughly on the same money.
I've worked hard all my life, sort of person who can't take a holiday - constantly on the go ( like most of us eh?!)
Anyway, I hate being on benefits. I know I'm on them because I'm looking after disabled dh but still it kind of makes me feel low. Pre dc and children I worked multiple jobs at once and enjoyed being successful. Now with my home work load there is no way I can persue such careers at this point.
Anyway, my job is another caring profession, in an emotional caring field rather than physical - but its something I'm passionate about (working with other mums) but I'm kind of spent looking after everyone. I look after dc, dh and can take on the emotional weight of the mums I work with sometimes. I work with an amazing team of uplifting and inspiring women but realistically even if I worked full time it would never be enough to sustain the 4 of us.
The only way I will ever get my online business off the ground is if I have the time to do it. The only room in my life is to ditch the job. The only way I will ever be able to finally sustain my family is by earning more than £9ph. I have a great business idea and am really passionate about it. Realistically it's a gamble as with all new businesses I'm not naive to think it's a golden path. I have a finance and business degree - and more importantly a strong sense of how I could develop and grow the business. It would take relatively little start up costs.
However something is holding me back, it seems crazy to give up a job in this day and age - even if I don't earn anything from it - with cuts to disabled benefits at least it's nice knowing I'm employable as I have been in a steady job.
Ultimately I am desperate to be able to provide for my family financially and persue my dream - am I right to go with my gut or stick to security of things plodding along?