I have autism, depression and anxiety and have been on DLA/ESA since I was 16 (I am 27). I moved out of my parents 6 months ago and am struggling financially. I use all of my DLA (172 a month) to cover the shortfall of my rent as I'm on shared accomodation rate housing benefit which is 228 a month. My rent costs 400 a month.
I am really struggling financially and after working out all my expenses, I have -100 left a month. I spend around £70 a month for my bus pass and for my art class. I meet my mentor in town every week and attend two support groups.
When I started on DLA at 16 I was agoraphobic and never left the house alone. This changed 2 years ago when I started getting the bus to my support group. I've also come to realise since being out and about how my autism effects me, whereas I didn't know before as I was housebound.
I get lost easily and can't seem to navigate my way around (unless its a very simple route such as the local corner shop or in a supermarket as it just has 12 or so aisles all in a rectangle shape which I can navigate). I also get visual and sensory overload so I struggle to cross roads, be around groups, process information/conversations etc. If I get very overloaded I feel very depressed and suicidal.
Due to the overload of colours, lights, sounds, people, navigating my way around, I'm always in a state of derealisation (feeling detached from surroundings) which is a really disturbing feeling and i worry if i try to cross the road I might get run over due to being disassociated.
I desperately need new bras as the ones I've got are falling to bits - but I never have any money to buy any. I only wear loose fitted dresses and Asda cardigans due to sensory issues which I usually buy off ebay. I've worn the same 7 outfits over 2 years so many times they look a bit scruffy now. I did buy 4 summer dresses off ebay but I don't think they will be suitable to wear when the weather starts to get colder.
I wanted to know if I should apply to PIP now or wait for the letter from PIP? Even if I am lucky to get the lowest rate of mobility, it will be £100 more than I'm on now and I won't be struggling so much.
If so, who shall I contact to help me fill in the PIP forms? It needs to be someone who knows a bit about autism. I'm not sure if CAB would be suitable?
I'm really sad that this is my life. I hoped to have a career, a relationship and to have children but it's very unlikely I will be able to cope with those things, realistically. I've started to accept that, but it hurts so much
I feel guilty that I've never had a job or payed into the system.