I feel like I already know the answer to this one is yes and I need to just calm down and put it all in prespective but I'm having a moment, ok, and I need somebody to give me a virtual slap and tell me to chill.
I'm currently 20 weeks pregnant with DC1 and living in a one bedroom flat. Until a few days ago, DH and I had it all planned out to move out to a nice house in the suburbs. We would be moving in about two to three months time but, without hashing out all the details, we've hit a fairly big snag and it looks like the sale is going to fall through. As it's taken us several weeks to get to this point, the chances of us finding somewhere new and moving in before baby arrives are now slim to none and I'm pretty gutted.
The logical part of me knows there's no practical reason why having the baby here for the first few months wouldn't be do-able. It's a generously sized one bedroom that just needs a bit of a clean and a declutter to get it baby ready. I know people who cope with far less than what we have so I also feel that we should be grateful for what we do have and just make do.
But the less logical part of me just doesn't want to. I wanted to bring my baby home to a nice family house rather than the flat we settled for because transport links are good and we're at work most of the time anyway. Plus the neighbours are anything but neighbourly so I'm bracing myself for the backlash when they realise there's going to be a crying baby in the building. I feel like I'm already a crap mother because I couldn't sort this out (again, logical part of me knows people cope with much less than I do and it's no reflection on their parenting skills - the emotional part of me has chosen to ignore this) and I just want to cry.
I know I should pull myself together but surely I'm not being that unreasonable to really strongly feel upset about being in a situation I really did not want to be in?