to think anxiety will never leave me be

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I am just so tired of it all. Its never going to let me have a life. It taints everything. I over react to everything and right now i feel totally overwhelmed. My adult dd is following in my footsteps and its killing me. M
My dp wants me to reduce hours at work to be home more for dd as he says he loseso money and i don't earn enough :( i am trying to decide whether to take on three year training course at work. There are lots of reasons this is causing me anxiety.

I feel like my life is spiralling out of control agaim .

I feel like giving up

I had reached that point and went to gp, got a course of sertraline. I've been taking it 3 days and I feel SO much better. I still get worried/intrusive thoughts but rather than dwelling they sort of float off. I'd really recommend going to the gp, I wish I had sooner.

I hear ya

My anxiety is well managed, but I know it will be back if life chucks stuff at me (and it will at some point).

Have you had any CBT or ADs?

After 24 years of it I'm with you, anxiety ruins so much of your life & is bloody exhausting. I might have to bite the bullet and go to the GP to see if they'll give me AD's. I can cope in winter but summer is horrific.

been on and off, mostly on. ad's for 10 years. I thought i had kicked it but still there waiting to drown me. I do manage it with exercise and im two stone into losing the 4 stone i put on because of ADs.

I love my job but im over qualified yet have to retrain at level 3 when my quals are level 6 (PhD) so am worried i wont engage or worse wont cope when people are expecting so much. There is no progression, ill have to sell my soul to corporate demons and dp now announced he thinks i should refuce hours. I need to make a decision soon.

My relationship with dd1 is fucked (awhole other thread that i started earlier) and i can feel dd2 slipping away.

Am so angry with myself i want to hurt myself but i wont but i feel so useless and worthless.

I am the most selfish person you could meet.

I thought that; I had severe anxiety for eight years. Then I had CBT and my life turned around; I'm now a fully functioning adult.

had cbt had everything bar electric shock treatment but it just comes back.

My dp wont stay if i slip agsin. I had a melt down today and he has been so distant

ofnofixedabode - Ads are really useful and i sincerely hope you continue to feel better. Mnet kept me alive (i am not exaggerating!) when i was at my lowest. There are some wonderful supportive people here.

Heffalumps - your name is familiar to me. Were you ever a resident of "the village"?

Anxiety is shit. I've said before on here but I have bi-polar and have suffered with PTSD, it was the anxiety that had me suicidal. Worse then the other two put together.

I've no good advice but it's really shit and I'm sorry your going through it

Have hope OP. I had anxiety since being a small child and it got so much better in my mid twenties. I honestly thought I could never be happy or lead a normal life. But I am, and I do.

ADs made my anxiety much much worse BTW, only diazepam would work during the really bad patches, and CBT when I could actually think and focus. Anxiety IS exhausting, really, isn't it? BTW well done for sticking to your exercise, it is a wonder drug for me, too.

From the practical point of view I can only suggest that you look after yourself physically and mentally, and break down the things that overwhelm you into the tiniest chunks. You probably do all that already