Looking for opinions as I know there's a lot of Mumsnet cyclists.
Backstory....lived abroad in a country with wide roads and not much traffic. Bought a bike (was a bit of peer pressure involved) but I love my bike and had some great days cycling where we used to live. Did a lot of hill climbing and had a couple of bad falls on the descent, probably caused by trying to slow down rather than going with the flow. Also got clip-in pedals while I was there, which were great for long cycles, but I never really got on with them, DH was more keen that I have them than I was!
Moved back to the UK and stopped cycling so much. Maybe a few long country rides in the last year. Went out with a club a couple of times to get my confidence back on narrow UK roads. Spent a few evenings in the park trying to refine my clipping technique.
Anyway, I'm at a point now where I'm still slow clipping in and out and still really nervous on the road. I cycled to work this weekend for the first time and had a lovely route planned, off road shared used paths to begin and end but had to cross the city in the middle. Fine on a weekend. I actually arrived at work feeling happy and exhilarated!
This morning I did not enjoy the ride at all! Roads were really busy with cars passing fairly close. I didn't mind that so much but I don't like cycling in queuing traffic as I find it difficult to clip and unclip as often as is needed. There's a hill with lots of stop starting and no cycle lane, and I just got off and pushed my bike up the pavement at that point. In fact I got off and pushed my bike a few times! Totally negating the point of cycling.
Basically I just feel nervous and unsafe on the road. Constant stop starting and getting off the bike can't be very safe, but really don't feel up to weaving my way around the traffic.
I've checked the route and basically there is a massive gap in the city centre for cycle lanes/paths.
My options are to stop being a wimp and hold my line in the road, to carry on pushing the bike in the middle part of the ride, to get rid of my clipped pedals so I am not attached to the bike, or just to get back on the sloooow bus!
I think if I don't cycle now, I'll lose my confidence for good, and then I may as well just sell my bike!
Well....AIBU?