I'm big, I'm on slimming world, I've lost just over a stone but I'm still 15st6lb, now a size 20 and do literally do no exercise.
I've been feeling great eating healthy and decided I wanted to do some exercise, and it needs to be something I can just go out and do rather than travel to (I have a 3 month old) so I decided to run.
I went out the other day and ran a mile. It took me 16 minutes and I felt like I was going to die.
I've only spoken about it with one friend and my DP who are keeping it a secret at my request. And they've signed up for the Norwich 10k with me in August. Then I went for a run last night, it's the first run of a 12 week training plan to run 10k (the run is just over 12 weeks from now) and it wasn't so bad because there was loads of intervals walking and running. But I only covered 1.65 miles in 25 minutes.
I can't even imagine running 10k. Which is why this next bit is crazy, I've got this weird dream that I could run a marathon this time next year. I'm huge and so unfit, I'm pretty sure this is impossible. I'm right, right?
My DP and friend are really encouraging but I'm not telling anyone else at the moment in case I fail. I don't want anyone I know IRL to think "yeah there's no way she can do that" but I really really want to do it. I even started a blog to write it all down and try and be positive, but I'm not sharing it on social media or with any of my friends yet. I put my weight on there too. I think they'd be shocked at how heavy I've got. I called it tubbygirlrunning.co.uk to try and laugh it all, but I'm not laughing.
I'm so ashamed of what I've let myself become.
I gues what I'm looking for is if there's anyone that's done what I want to do? Or any runners who maybe wanna give me a reality check or have any tips. Just honest opinions really, is this crazy? Am I just making a fool of myself?