Not sure if this is aibu or just want a bit of perspective and opinion.
Socially I quite akward. I have a few friends about 4 that I regularly see and what not.
My friend best has gone a bit of the rails lately and as much as I tried to support them I feel it on deaf ears so while being supportive I let her get on with it.
I have been closer too these two others over this year. But increasingly I feel a bit of an outsider. I don't think it's intentionally, more out of absent mindleness and thoughtlessness.
One example we decided to book a holiday. I turned up for coffee one day to find out they had booked a camping trip without asking my option on the location or date. It was very convenient for them but not for me. But I agree anyway as I really wanted this holiday. I soon realised that I would be forking out probs double what the trip cost in travel, food ect. However I have had to cancel it because I got a new job, parents unforeseen money troubles and just general miffed about the situation. They were very understanding about it and said they would give me money back.
The more I write this, the more I feel like I'm being silly about it.
But I feel like the two friends and really connecting, inviting each other to family things. And I'm sort of left out, I don't expect to be invited to everything but I just feel I'm left out of so much.
I know I should not be too focused on this but I feel like an outsider, and that the other two are much closer.
I have a new job at a pub so hopefully I makes some friends their but also I will try and join a society next academic year.
Do I just come to terms with this? Or should o try making an effort and try to connect with them more.