To feel that there is a certain point in the spring/summer (hint: now) when being a bit drunk is acceptably more normal than not being drunk.

[scaryclown]

I am in that state (lovely!) where I feel like most things are done to the level I care that they are done, where the light and sun makes me feel both artificially healthy and invincible, and like 'who gives a chuff about effectiveness and sensibleness', and I am a tiny bit drunk, and feel like THIS is the way I should be all the time.. I am finding dullness really pointless, and not embarrassed about it.. !

also:

Surely its all a delusion!