To think I've got PND

[Ricecrispies16]

I understand this isn't exactly and aibu but I've posted elsewhere with no response and I just need some perspectives.

I don't really know where to start with this I just need someone to help me understand what's happening.

I think I might have PND. I just don't feel myself, I am a sahm to a 3 year old and 7 month old baby. I feel like I'm going mad, I've lost all sense of who I am, my relationship is suffering, I have no libido, half term is here now and I feel so overwhelmed at trying to fill the two weeks (my 3yo goes to nursery 2 days a week) my car broke so I can't go anywhere without spending hours on a bus. I'm eating and eating and gaining weight but can't seem to stop. I feel so down. I've cried every day for about a week now. I feel like a shit mum for not enjoying it more.
I can't work out wether this is just stress/anxiety caused by the environment I'm in or of something else is going on. I've had anxiety for as long as I can remember, I've never done anything about it though because I try to be strong and block things out. But I'm just feeling overwhelmed. I feel like my life is shit. My relationship has gone to shit. I feel like I've failed massively in my life and the only thing I have to show for it is my kids.

I feel so guilty

Identifying that things aren't right and wanting to do something about it is a step in the right direction. You need some help. Can you talk to GP or HV?

First thing Monday make a GP appointment and ring your HV. It does sound like pad to me but I am sure others more qualified than me will be along soon.

You are not broken just struggling, take care of yourself

Firstly you have nothing to feel guilty for. You are a great Mum, if you weren't you wouldn't be worrying about any of this IYSWIM.
Please speak to someone in real life, a doctor or health visitor if you can. There is help out there and you've made the first step by saying you might need a little support.