Sorry if wrong topic
Feeling very upset about my family. I have a big family - one of 5 girls, parents divorced when i was 6
I have one dc who is 18mth and one due.
My oh and i argue all the time and im finding myself increasingly lonely.
My family have never been close but i feel so sad that they literally make no effort. My dad has seen dc 4 times, my mom the same. None of my siblings bother....none of them came to the baby shower (including my mom), no siblings came to the 1st bday party despite me always having made the effort for all of their kids.
I feel let down
My inlaws dislike me because i took oh away from them. My oh has told me repeatedly that he is jealous of his sibling as his siblings oh family is the opposite of mine. I get critacised all the time and called names (slovenly, lazy etc. - im not perfect but im not those things)
I feel very angry and bitter towards my family for not caring about me or my child (or the one on the way) and also very lonely in my marriage. All my oh and i seem to do is argue or go through the motions....
I feel very jealous of friends whose family offer support. Ive not been out anywhere alone since dc was born. I feel like ive lost myself - gone from earning £60k in a good job to being a stay at home mum with a £100 allowance each week (all household shopping, spending, clothing for me and dc etc).
Am i being unreasonable to feel let down by my family? Is this some kind of pnd or depression in this current pregnancy or are things genuinely rubbish? I cant think straight