I am married with a four year old dd. You wouldn't know this if you met me - I'm all smiles to the outside word but truthfully I just feel like I'm not doing life very well at the moment.
I'm finding everything overwhelming - dealing with dd's behaviour, trying to organise all the things she needs for school, trying to do a job I feel unsuited for. Spending money then panicking afterwards. I just don't ever ever feel relaxed or happy. Dh is my best friend but all we do nowadays is bicker over dd or his family.
I find myself often feeling angry about things that people say or do and I rant to him about it and it eats me up inside and I feel like a horrible person for talking that way but I can't stop it - I just get so fed with people. I'm constantly second guessing myself and worrying about what others think.
Life just exhausts me and I wish I could just stop and breathe for a moment. I feel like I'm doing it all wrong and don't know how to make life feel right again. Am i going bonkers?