It really is self indulgent because I'm in a far more fortunate position than many. I am property rich and cash poor.
Sadly, right now I am VERY cash poor! After a long illness it took a while getting on my feet. I am now working full time and at weekends too but I've got a few more weeks to work through before coming out the other side, although I won't be rich.
Meanwhile, I feel jealous of some friends who own beautiful country cottages and are enjoying all the perks of Christmas: meanwhile until Friday I can't even afford a mince pie!
It's stressful but also so very lonely in a bizarre way so just sharing the love as it were!