to think that i need more medical help

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I've said it on other threads so I'm not really oversharing.

I am struggling massively with my mental health.

I was violently raped on the15 September.

I appear to have developed agoraphobia

I am doing well with leaving the house in the past two days.

However.

I can't stop bloody crying. I even wake up with tears everywhere.

I'm under a home treatment team which are useless.

How da actual Fuck do I get over this?

They can't consider counselling as I am drinking and agoraphobic.

I have previously been to a and e when in a similar situation. They will always have an on call psych to assess you. is that an option ? I agree with pp that an inpatient stint may help. It did me.

Thanks all.
The problem with reducing alcohol is that I can talk the talk but not walk the walk.
I've so much going on in my head right now.
I personally think I need inpatient treatment but it's like they are trying to put a bandaid over a weeping ulcer.

And I was an inpatient for a week. Discharged 10 days before I was raped.

OP, I am so so sorry about what happened to you. You must feel so overwhelmed by everything going on. I don't really know what to suggest other than the same as a previous poster and maybe start by making a list of things or steps to take. Baby steps. Things within your control that will make your life a little easier.
I have been in a similar situation, nearly 12 years ago, and it was a really dark time. But I'm still here now. The fact you know you need help is positive. Sending you peace and love x

I have no advice, sorry, but I am thinking of you and I am so sorry for what you went through and what you are going through. I just wanted you to know that.

The thing is I desperately want to stop alcohol
Reducing alcohol? That's my definition of juxtaposition.
I have gone cold turkey before with only nightmares and such to contend with.
I think I'm going to have to go through the horrors again. Htt certainly haven't a clue.

Thank you angry lady

How are you doing? Have you managed to stop? At least enough to get some proper help. I feel for you. I really do

Not yet. They've apparently had a 'professionals' meeting about me on Tuesday. Looking at trying to get treatment to visit me rather than making appointments for me involving me leaving the house.
Thanks for asking.

They've been very hush hush about this though. Why they can't involve me in the discussion I don't know. It's not like I am going to tell them there's nothing wrong with me.
Anyway, we'll see what genius solution they come up with.

A home detox maybe. Have you tried listening to some of the Aa podcasts. I use them when I can't get to a meeting.

I honestly wish you the best I really do

A professionals meeting doesn't involve the service user; that's why you're not involved my love. And you won't leave the house and often shout at people trying to help. I understand why but it's really difficult for HCPs to help under those circumstances. That's why they're having a professionals meeting.

Hopefully they'll suggest a community alcohol detox.

Hi OP I'm so sorry you're going through this. I know (from experience) home treatment teams can't feel that helpful. Even though they're not discussing it with you at the moment I'm glad they're looking at alternatives. Try and keep talking to them and engaging. It does sound as if inpatient might be a good option at this point. There's a charity near me that offers really stays of four days almost immediately in a very supportive environment with people to talk to (though not a detox centre) which may be a help to you to break the cycle - you sound as if you are asking for and wanting help which is a really strong thing to do. I'm in London and if that would be helpful PM me. You don't have to be in London but would need to travel there.

Otherwise keep telling your home care team what you need and what your are able to do. And keep talking to us here if it's helpful