I'm expecting to be flamed. But here goes.
I'm a sahm to three kids aged 8-4. Two have autism. The youngest severely so. I didn't chose to sah but the younger two cannot cope with much childcare. I do all appointments, therapies, cleaning, cooking, washing and ironing. Dh has a busy job and often gets in at gone 8pm as he finds it easier to work there. He also does his hobby once/twice a week.
The issue is sex. We barely have any. I'm exhausted. He feels asleep on the sofa frequently. Our youngest barely sleeps. He's groped my bottom and boobs which I've told him time and time again I hate but a cuddle or a kiss is never just that. He doesn't get involved with the kids education despite two struggling with certain subjects. I've told him this. That a lot of the time I don't even care if he doesn't do any household things but I want him to be more involved with the kids. To discuss therapists/therapies. He complains a lot he feels rejected. I admit having two child with Sen has in many ways taken a lot from me. He says he understands but doesn't or so it feels like. He says he won't bother touching me. I'm tired of explaining it. That I'm always on call to everyone. I'm not sure I have anything to give to anyone right now.
I feel angry at him a lot of the time and he can't seem to see this or understand that occasionally "I know it's hard with the kids but you're doing amazingly". He was worshipped by his mother so is very use to being the golden boy and his sister didn't get much of a look in.
Am I awful? He's not a bad bloke but he's making me feel awful. Maybe I should let him go. I'm doing the best I can but I've got just enough for me and I need to keep going for the kids right now.