Posting here for traffic really but I went back to work in September and have felt much better in general. I haven't had a panic attack in months. I've had therapy and I feel like nothing could really explain why this keeps happening. Last night I was kept awake by the most horrendous feeling. It felt like my chest was being crushed, I was going to be sick and my head was going to explode. I couldn't stop crying and the feeling lasted for hours. I felt guilty but I had to wake up DP for a cuddle and it helped a little but didn't get rid of it completely.
I have a feeling it was down to my boss calling me in for a meeting this week. I have no idea why but I'm scared it isn't good. I don't think I've done anything wrong but story of my life things always get difficult when I think it's going great. The therapy I have (CBT) didn't really stop the panic attacks at all.
I'm scared this lack of control over them means I will need medication and this may affect my ability to work. I have felt so much better since being back at work and we really need the money.