To feel depressed that I am unable to make purposeful and meaningful changes

[newyearbells]

At varying times of my life I have managed to really turn things round for the better.

Then, I let go of the steering wheel and things slide back to how they always were.

AIBU? Is this just me?

YANBU This is not just you this is a lot of us. Sometimes we have to make the same mistakes a few times before we really get a grip of it. I dont know what your circumstances are but sometimes it helps to just step away from the pressure and greadually start to change things in small acheivable baby steps and to not judge yourself for past failures. Tomorrow is always another day and new starts can be made when ever you are ready.

What aspects are you wanting to change?

Have you seen the Portia Nelson poem thing?

I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk
I fall in.
I am lost … I am helpless.
It isn’t my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

Chapter II

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter III

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in … it’s a habit … but,
my eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

Chapter IV

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.
Chapter V

I walk down another street.