Bit of background:
DH and I are low earners. We have two children and not much family .
We have two children in childcare.
We are skint !
But DH has just had a very generous promotion and as of December we'll be so much better off.
BUT , I don't get paid until Tuesday and I've just had to ask my brother to lend me £10 to put petrol in the car . He doesn't mind and we often lend to each other .
But I can't get rid of this awful niggling feeling of badness about how much we've relied on help from others over the years.
We've borrowed from family and very close friends (who are in the very high earnings bracket ) . We've borrowed from family quite often - usually low amounts between £10-£60 . As I said , we've also lent similar to my brother .
The largest amount was around £1200 when our banger of a car broke down (we rely on it for my work ).
We always pay back on time and even though our friends wanted to write off the loan - we insisted on paying back every penny . We have been profusely grateful and treated them to an outing on a month when we were better off .
I just feel like such a loser ! 
It's been very very stressful at times when we've had huge unexpected bills and no money to pay them , when the car needed work etc.
Admittedly , some of the time it has been due to bad budgeting. But also when we've had unexpected bills .
It's been a very stressful few years but DH promotion is our bit of luck .
I just feel so down tonight about having to lend for petrol . (We've also lent money out to my brother when he's needed it ) .
Am I being harsh on myself ? Or is it really frowned upon?