This is going to be a long one so apologies in advance.
I have DS12 and was a single mum, in every sense of the word (NO financial or emotional support) for 8 years. I trained to teach and worked my way up to a managerial position in a large secondary school which was stressful but rewarding. Then I met DH. He swept me off my feet and within 9 months myself and DS had moved in with him, quite far away, so I gave up my job and became totally dependent on DH. He is lovely, loves my son as his own and was happy for me to take up a housewife role. At first I found it lovely, no stress etc. DH has a well paid job with short hours so we are able to spend a lot of time together. (Please this isn't a stealth boast)
Recently I've found myself feeling very.... dissatisfied. I know I'm incredibly lucky in my situation, really I do. I miss the importance of having a job (SAHM is all very well and good when u have a child to actually stay at home with...) but the thought of going back to teaching fills me with dread a little bit.
So... I've been thinking more and more about the career that I originally wanted to follow (before darling DS came along during my uni years and scuppered that plan
) and I feel that I would love it. The only problem is it involves 6 months training abroad.
Am I being totally selfish in pursuing it? Spending 6 months away from my family is a selfish thing isn't it?
I know the answer is I should just get a job nearby but I'm tired of feeling unsatisfied and unchallenged. This new career would definitely be challenging. And because DH earns well and doesn't mind supporting us I feel the job would really have to be 'worth it' satisfaction wise to go ahead with that.
At the moment, as my username suggests, I'm tending to spend most of my days napping, watching boxsets, baking and eating. Not good for me and certainly not a good example to DS.
Yes, a true first world problem if ever there was one. I just feel a bit low and pointless right now