To wish the baby blues would fuck off

[Hopelass]

Not really sure why I'm posting. I guess I'm feeling a little lonely and emotional. DS2 was born two weeks ago and today the baby blues have really hit.
I feel like I've broken our little family of three.
I feel like 3 yo DS1 hates me.
I feel like I'll never have more than 2 hours sleep in a row again.
I've just been paid Mat pay of over £200 less than I was expecting.
DM and DH have been brilliant but I'm so scared of over utilising them; I don't want them to resent helping me when I should be able to cope.
I can't stop fucking crying!!!

Anyone any advice?! or a grip

Every day is a day nearer to you feeling better. Of course it's a massive adjustment for your family but your toddler does not hate you and is simp,y making that same adjustment. I had the BB terribly when I had my twins. Thought it was turning into PND so do keep an eye on how you are feeling. It's bloody hard work with a newborn and a toddler so be kind to yourself. If help if offered TAKE IT!!!. You are knackered and that always makes things feel so much worse. It WILL get better. Hang in there

Thanks seeking am already under the GP and in meds for depression and have an appointment on Monday. Just suddenly hit by the hormones on top of that today