to want to experience my one youthful rebellion again?

[FionaGatwick]

Eight years ago, in a foreign country, I met someone who was so different from what I was used to.

It was brief but intense. At least, to me, it was. Then I had to leave.

We still kept in touch. Eventually he just became that one person I used to know. Said hi to from time to time. We're now, at most, almost friends. Most of the times, I laugh at myself for being so dumb and crazy infatuated that time. But sometimes...

I am in a very loving, but sexless marriage.

Sometimes I think of going away somewhere, meeting him, sometimes I relive it in my memories.

Am I a horrible person?

No of course not, everyone's entitled to their fantasies. But you might be better tackling the issue of your marriage. Why is it sexless?

I don't know. We both have low drive. I have no doubt that he loves me, but we do not have sex.

Get yourself a vibrator

That's the thing with youthful flings, no pressure of daily life so it's being viewed via rose tinted glasses.

Concentrate on your marriage, although important, sex isn't everything and surely you must have enough respect for your spouse enough to not go behind their back. Unless you haven't, in which case maybe end the marriage before someone gets hurt. Then you are free to chase who you wish - although you may be disappointed if it isn't all that great the second time round