FedupofbeingtoldIcantusemyname ·
04/10/2016 16:38
I'm just so sick of feeling shit about the way I look.
I have a skin condition (rosecea? I think thats how its spelt?) that makes my face red/pink all the time, and gives my face an awful texture with bumps and tiny spots. It makes me so depressed because no matter how much make up I wear my face never doesn't look red and awful, and its hard to cover up your face. I can't afford any of the really good specialist cover up stuff and nothing the GP has given me has helped. On the really bad days I don't want to go out because of it. I'm so jealous of other girls with good skin.
What really really gets me down though is my body. I'm not absolutely massive, around a size 16, but I feel it. I have some scarring on my stomach area that has given me a disgusting 'apron' of flab that I can't get rid of, and I've lost some weight after being bigger so I have loose skin on my belly which makes this look even worse. When I exercise I can feel it wobbling around and I'm terrified of my top accidentally rolling up and it being exposed to the world. I hate seeing myself naked in the mirror and often cry about it. I just feel like even if I lose more weight it won't go away and I will have it for life. Its so frustrating because I actually feel like the rest of my body isn't that bad but I just hate my belly so much and I can't afford a tummy tuck 
Aibu to want to get over this but not know how? I just dream of the day when I could look normal and do/wear what I want and be happy with myself but I can't see that ever happening while I look like I do. Has anyone else ever had this loose skin/scarring issue and successfully gotten rid of it without surgery?