This may also belong in parenting but I tend to be on AIBU the most so bear with me.
I totally suck as a mother - too impatient, too emotional and I have no idea what I'm doing.
I have a 6 year old who we recently had assessed for Autism - he was determined to have a few soft pointers but not enough to be diagnosed as Autistic - they did however advise that for ease of communication/understanding ( with his school etc) we might want to say he is high functioning autistic.
He is a great kid but drives me mad. He rarely listens to what we say until we have repeated it about 10 times and yes got shouty - he simply does what he wants but is always sorry afterwards.
He doesn't get on with other kids easily - he generally wants to play with other children but only if they play what he wants, his way.
He has recently started hitting when angry - we talked about it and read a great little book about what hands are for (waving, cooking, getting ourselves dressed) but are definitely not for hitting.
He mentions a boy at school (K) who he often aye is 'naughty' and if they interact he is generally on the opposite side to my son ( an autobot to my son's transformer to use his language and frame of reference).
Today there was a class trip to a local park and parents were encouraged to go. My son was his usual self - separate from the group but not demonstratively so (but I notice), not 100% listening to me or the teacher etc.
On our way back to school he was walking a little way ahead of me and I saw my son hit K - I really told him off and made him apologise. My son was upset and quiet then told me that K had come up to him and told him he was having a birthday party but not inviting him.
I felt choked. I fucking hated K and my first thought was well we won't be inviting K to my son's party (mature 
) I told my son that that was fine - we can't like everyone and we were busy that day anyway - but still no reason to hit.
I want to teach my son to call people out with bad manners but then walk away. Eg 'that was a horrible thing to say. Stop it' then walk off.
I did also say to K that it wasn't very nice or kind what he said and I'd thank him to stop being mean to my son otherwise I would speak to his parents - he said sorry.
I could have been worse but I just feel at 6 that my kid could be on a slippery slope to a lifetime to trouble managing relationships and I feel powerless to help him as I can't control myself.
Does anyone know how I feel and what the hell to do?!