I haven't seen my then ex since 2013. We had a tumultuous on/off relationship for 3 years and it seems I'm still playing it out in my mind everyday whilst he seems to have moved on with his life - as has the OW whom he is no longer with.
Why am I struggling so hard? I just think maybe certain things stay with you for life? I've been through talking and CBT therapy which didn't make any sort of difference and tried mindfulness but I didn't stick with it as I should.
But that said, surely I shouldn't be experiencing the pain of that relationship on a daily basis 3 years later. What can I do? Just accept that this is how it is going to be from now on?