To not accept MH diagnosis?

[Pimfree]

I've been diagnosed with depression. I accepted the first diagnosis (eventually and reluctantly) a few years ago and used medication. I came off medication last year and it's back.

I've lived most of my 36 years depression free - this experience is still new to me and I thought I would beat it and be fine again. Be me again.

It's a living nightmare. I'm scared to go back in ADs incase I never get off them again.

I don't want to be unwell and I would never judge anyone else with a MH problem but i just can't accept that this is happening to me - I have nothing to complain about and I worry that my friends and family are now always associating me with not coping and being a bit of an emotional wreck. I don't want to be judged. I want to be well and believe in my own ability - surely if I restart meds I'm just on a roller coaster which I can't get off of?

Pim - ADs can drag you out of a space where everything feels hopeless into one where you can actually make decisions. There could be lots of reasons for you feeling like this but until you're feeling less hopeless, it's very hard to tackle them.

Take time for therapy/counselling - it can help you unravel your triggers and get to the root cause.

I had depression on and off for years. I finally reached a crisis point and started therapy as well as AD. Together, they helped me unlock things. I haven 't had an episode now for 15+ years. I'm not saying I never will but I am much, much better at managing it than I was

You probably aren't making enough serotonin if your depression is not "caused" by an event. I am also on anti depressants but I have a related illness. I am probably going to be on this for the rest of my life. They make me well both mentally and for physical pain reasons. Why do you feel pressure to come off them? Is it from society or from yourself?

I found exercise helped a lot. I had to force myself because you don't feel like doing it but I told myself I may as well rather than sit worrying.
Long walks...cycling...it all helped lift my spirits the more I did it.

hope you are feeling more positive today. Hopefully the therapy worked out well.

Best wishes.

So you think fish oil will do something in your brain to make you feel better and therefore want to take them but you don't want to take anti-depressants where there is far more evidence these will do something in your brain and make you feel better. I don't understand why one thing you find ok the other not especially as the fish oil is actually less likely to have an effect

People are used to the idea that foods can affect their health (mental and physical), so that is easier to take on board as a solution. ADs are genuinely psychoactive which is a whole other ball game. I felt genuinely scared by the affects ADs had on me when changing up and down dosage levels precisely because I knew they were effective. Of course I was fine on them and off them in the end...just the transitions were tricky.

But you aren't just planning to eat more fish or?

Sorry to make this point again.
Pim please get some blood/hormone work done to eliminate biochemical causes for your problems.