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to struggle to trust DP after this?

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alificent · 03/06/2016 23:45

Just after christmas, while pregnant, I picked up DPs phone to take down his sisters mobile number. The tab left open was porn. DP had always said (without me expressing any feelings either way) that he doesn't 'do' porn and wanking and that he only ever had when his marriage was failing as he feels it isnt much different to cheating as you're still getting off over a person other than your partner. He had expressed this many, many times. When I saw the porn open, I was surprised but not particularly bothered. However, out of curiosity I checked his browsing history. There was loads of porn, every single day. Often while I was putting the children to bed, he was in the toilet or I was taking the children downstairs in the morning; it was constant. We had got engaged at Christmas and was having sex every day so I was shocked to see the extent of his porn watching.

I casually mentioned that I had seen that he had porn open on his phone and that he didn't need to cover it up or pretend it wasn't something that interests him if it was. He swore it was the first time in years and that he'd only done it to help me out because I was ill Hmm He was really keen to emphasise this was the one and only time. That then made me feel crap because I knew how much he was lying.

Our sex life went a bit downhill after the baby but we DTD about a month ago. It was over very quickly, i think due to all the masturbation. He talks about sex a lot and I think he could have a sex addiction. Since we slept together, I have had some odd symptoms. I have had abdominal pain, stinging down below and (apologies for TMI) greeny thick discharge. I'm terrified he might have taken a step further and cheated, then passed something nasty on to me.

He is a policeman and so works long and unpredictable hours. He has a history of lying over things (he 'forgot' to tell me that his exW had called her new baby by another man by his surname and had been telling people he was his) and flirty behaviour. When we first met he was ill and messaged the nurse saying it wasn't the same being home without her to look after him. At a work Christmas party he chatted and flirted non stop with a friends girlfriend and pretty much ignored me - he blamed drunkeness.

Today I wanted to google the weather forecast but my phone was in the babys room and she was sleeping so I picked up DPs phone. When I pressed the internet button it came up as a secret tab and all browsing was secret - there was no history. This just makes me think he's hiding things again. I have spoken to a friend who has urged me to see a doctor and thinks I am right to be suspicious but my sister thinks I have been unreasonable to have ever looked at his phone and that he's entitled to privacy.

What do you think?

OP posts:
enterYourPassword · 05/06/2016 04:04

gettingscarednow

"He pleasures himself by watching porn because his wife had recently birthed their child and was unable to fulfil his sexual needs..... Quite frankly that's a disgusting way to view things."

Why?

Sex was off the table (the reason is immaterial) so he popped off and had a wank. Isn't that pretty much the opposite to seeing it has his right?

"I simply meant that he sees (like a lot of men do)..."

Think that comment says a lot about your viewpoint.

@OP

I think the porn and cheating are two entirely different things. That said, if the trust is gone, it's gone and it'll take a long time to get it back if that's even what you'd like.

"He's always been the one to bring porn and how wrong it is up - before he got caught out."

I spent 5 years telling my boyfriend (now DH of 15 years) how disgusting smokers were and how the smell of tobacco made me feel ill. I was, of course, a secret smoker. Clean for years now and never find cause to comment on someone hacing a cigarette.

blinkowl · 05/06/2016 11:57

I think it is significant that he lied about the porn use.

It seems to me he's the kind of man who sees sex as primarily about satisfying his needs, and it's fine to lie about that, rather than something he shares with his partner for their mutual pleasure.

alificent good to hear you are thinking you should go to the Dr. You probably need anti-biotics. If it's the same in your area as mine, you can choose to go to your own Dr (does yours do same day appointments if you call first thing?) or your local GUM clinic.

Will you be able to go tomorrow?

ImperialBlether · 19/06/2016 10:26

What happened, OP? Did you go to get tested? Please don't put it off - if it's an infection you need to get treatment.

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