and some focus on direction when I feel so utterly lost and underconfident in terms of work? It's depressing and I feel like a proper failure.
I sound like a child. I'm 45 this summer. I had 9 years as a sahm. Started freelancing two years ago. It was great to be working again but I didn't relish the actual work per se.
I really really want to start again. Am I too old? I seem unable to pin down what it is I want. I reckon I have at least 20 working years left and I want to do something I love.
Is that too much to ask? Where the hell do I start? Is there an organisation or company I can enlist to help?