Here goes it's nothing really major but it's something that prays on my mind from time to time.
I feel like I am treated differently from my sister and part of me totally understands why .
My dad isn't my real dad biologically, but to me he is my dad if you know what I mean .
He brought me up when my mum had an affair and got pregnant with me and for this I have a great admiration for him because many men would have ran away from a situation like that .
Growing up wasn't easy as it was cast in my face constantly that mum ran away with a black man !
You can imagine how this made me feel as a child.
Anyway my sister was always treated differently from me she got everything and I'm not being overly dramatic when I say this ,but she was treated completely different from me which I kind of understand why. My mum used to tell her not to let me touch her things she was also cruel and a bully and dad struggled with what she did so I had to endure endless arguments and on a few occasions my dad shouted I wasn't his , admittedly when I was being an akward teenager !
Anyway fast forward years later my mum and dad have split up I no longer have contact with my mother after years of abuse from her .
My dad has remarried we are all grown up and my dad has a new wife who has made it clear on several occasions that she has no time for me, My problem is that I feel that they treat my sister completely different. I mean I notice silly things like my sister being invited over for dinner and never my family , liking all her photos on fb ignoring mine ( sounds trivial I know ! ) asking them if they would look after my dog them saying no they don't like dogs but happily looking after my sisters dog ? Having my sisters kids over but not mine ...Being told not to talk about my wedding as my sister has no money and is feeling left out she wants to get married, but has ran twenty thousand pounds up in debt therefor she can't afford it , and they are forever bailing her out ..I know I sound petty and trivial but it's starting to grate on me I think the fact that my dad isn't biologically mine makes me feel that little bit more insecure .For a long time now I have wondered if I am being unreasonable in how I feel left out and treated differently .Please don't be too harsh I'm a bit of a delicate soul .