So many problems right now!!
My main problem is my wedding in 5 weeks, i should be excited and nervous... but instead i cry everynight.
I have 3 bridesmaids, all are awkward, one is in Africa until 4 days before the wedding and the other 2 just don't have any contact with me or show any interest. I wish i hadn't asked my sister, his sister and my childhood friend. They themselves are stressful, but then you add my parents... they happily wanted to pay for 90% of my wedding and stupidly i agreed. Not only have we argued and disagreed about everything, from colours of bridesmaids, the cake, table decs, invitations, and table arrangements. But they have actually got their own way with half of it, they have changed my table and top table plan to what they want, even though i sat everyone where i knew was right, they changed it behind my back and sent it off to the wedding planner!! I wanted a nice green for the bridesmaids but ended up with a light blue. I always say what i think, but they tell me it doesn't look right and it needs to look good.
I seriously thought it would have been my mil that would have been like this but suprisingly its my parents. It does feel like their wedding, and i cry everynight and i have to say i want it over with. I've given up telling them as my mum ends up storming off crying then my dad yells at me and then it ends up their way because i don't want a family fall out.
Is it me thats the bridezilla? Its how i'm being made to feel 
Me and my partner are more then capable, we have a house together and a 2 half year old son with our own ideas .... only the ideas are pushed into a corner