My dh has announced that he is being sent away to a conference for a week by work. It's abroad and happens to be somewhere I have always wanted to visit. We have two DDs 1 and 7 so I will obviously not be going. Although as it's a work thing I'm not sure I would anyway.
I really, really want to be supportive. He works long hours and it sounds quite stressy most of the time. I work 3 days and do the most of the childcare alone. The littlest one still wakes a lot at night and doesn't really nap. This in itself is wearing me down a lot after 18 months of it. She is generally quite hard work! I BF so oh doesn't really do the night-shift unless she's fed and just needs settling. I try not to get him up unless I'm really struggling.
Anyway when he announced this trip out of the blue I just felt cross and resentful and didn't really hide it. I am just so tired all of the time and there's no one to help with the childcare so it's a bit relentless. The commute to work is my 'me-time'. It also reminds me that this kind of opportunity to escape for a bit will never happen for me. We've just moved house so no opportunity even for a holiday. 'Everyone else' I know seems to be doing lovely exciting things. I know I'm being unreasonable and feeling sorry for myself. How do I change my rotten attitude?