Aibu to think I should stop taking antidepressants

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I switched from citalopram to sertraline about 8 or 9 weeks ago because citalopram was no longer helping after my baby was born (6 months ago). Since then I have felt more out of control, urges to self harm - which is unusual as I don't normally have this very often . I havent seriously hurt myself i am talking minor things like scratching my arms with pens! Nothing serious but still a lot more than normal even when I have been quite seriously depressed before.

I am wondering if sertraline is just making it worse or if it would be even worse without if you see what I mean. I do have a follow up at the doctor next week but I am not keen on saying too much about this or other things as I don't want a fuss made over it.

So aibu to just say I want to stop?

Trust me, OP. I'm a nurse, loads of us are on 'em.

OP, if you say what you've said to us to the doctor that will be fine, you're actually coming across really clearly and explaining yourself very well even if you aren't feeling great now. Be assertive with the receptionist and tell her it is an urgent crisis and you need an appointment that day.

Try asking your doctor if you can try one of the tablets for major depression like Venlaflaxine. I was in quite a similar situation to you with bad symptoms for years never really going away and they really did help and make a big difference.

I know it's tough but try not to worry tonight and stay as calm as you can, try and do something nice which keeps your mind off it or put yourself in the most relaxing situation you can.

Please come back tomorrow and let us know how you get on.

Thanks - I hope I can make things clear to the doctor I always feel rude if I try to talk too much

Definitely go back to your GP. I have been prescribed a myriad of drugs over the years. Many which didn't help. I have attempted suicide and self harmed to the extent I needed A and E and in patient care. when I finally got a diagnosis of bi polar I was offered citalapram and have never looked back. Something will work for you. Also I want to add that I applied for teacher training and was accepted after an interview with occupational health. My current post required a similar interview which assessed my health and advised the school on their responsibilities if I became I'll. You are covered under the disability discrimination act so don't worry about it being a smear on your record. Your priority is your health so look after yourself and ask for help. Good luck x

Ok.i put my name down on the doctors list just wait for them to call now

Did you get to see them in the end?

This is a known side effect in the first few weeks of taking certain ads. I had it. Horrible and very weird. Call your gp explain data happening they will advise on options and in my area they gave me various emergency numbers in case I just needed to be somewhere looked after. Its most likely your meds but take it seriously.

Don't worry about coming across as extreme. You are but it's the chemicals in your brain. Medics know if will go away again. I had horrible intrusive thoughts of hurting myself and crazy anxiety spirals every 20 minutes. Called gp and had v practical discussion on how you make sure I didn't hurt myself until this passed. It's just chemicals.

Yes I saw them I posted a thread in chat about it it did not go well

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/_chat/2614376-I-think-the-gp-just-told-me-to-give-up-cancelling-further-appointments

youre not alone, i also found that sertraline made me a lot worse when i took

i myself though i was depressed for a long long time and suffered in silence, they tried me on almost every antidepressant and none helped.
after getting so bad i did try to end things so to speak, and eventually get the help i needed and was diagnosed with a panic disorder and 'borderline personality disorder.
this is exactly why you need to persevere with your doctor, they will happily change you on to some different tablets, have you ever tried mirtazapine? these may be more helpful.
as for the crisis team, you cannot simply self refer to them, if youve been hospitalized or took extreme measures to end your life then the crisis team intervene, but personally i dont think they help much.

Wow, how awful. Get another appt for your regular GP and bring up the major anti-depressants.

Do not do it! It ruins your life and your brain.