Have recently suffered with MH issues including anxiety, depression etc following major relationship issues, moving house ... Basically a troubled few years. I've also suffered with and ED and am now in recovery but that has involved a lot of weight gain.
During that time I've lost touch with old friends - I find it very hard to make friends as am incredibly introverted so these were people from school/college who I would barely see but would send birthday cards to/text occasionally. Just decided I did not have the mental energy to keep any of it up and did not reply. A few people persisted in getting in touch so I have maintained contact as I feel bad. I met up with one of them a few months ago - was incredibly nervous about meeting up as felt she would be judging me (my problem I know). In the end I just felt utterly irrelevant. She didn't ask a single question about me - I had even had a job interview earlier that day and met up with her still in interview clothes and she didn't ask how it had gone. It just put it in perspective for me that she really wasn't a friend.
She has been in touch since via e-mail (she lives overseas) but I have not replied. Another friend who I have not seen for nearly 2 years has been in touch via text this week and I have not responded.
A third friend also got in touch last week - we have a weird relationship as I don't really tell her anything about what's going on with me but she has had a really tough time recently with two MC and when she texted to say what had happened I sent her some flowers and a care parcel and spa voucher as I just felt so bad for her.
I just don't want to reply and pretend everything is fine. OTOH I don't want to lay open all my issues to them. Basically I would just prefer not to be in touch. At all. They all live far away and just really don't feel like part of my life any more. AIBU to just blank everyone?