I've known my best friend since high school. We've been through a lot together, marriage, children, divorces and subsequent relationship break ups.
We've supported each other along the way with coffee, wine, tearful phone calls, great nights out and just someone to listen talk to. She's been a good friend to me and I to her I hope.
She's a very confident person, quite opinionated and brusque, she often says what she thinks and sometimes it can be quite hurtful. I too am not a shrinking violet and can hold my own but I'm a bit more diplomatic with things I say.
We both have good jobs, mine is better paid than hers (which she has pointed out to me at times) and I believe she is very slightly jealous about this.
She's been with her DP for 5 years or so, not her soulmate (she says) but he's a decent man. I'm in a newish relationship, just 16 months and he moved in with me last month. She was surprised at this. And I don't think my DP sits well with her as he isnt my usual type, I think she thinks I could do better.
Over the past year I've seen her about 5/6 times, most of which have been instigated and arranged by me. I've tried to keep the lines of communication open but I feel it's a bit one sided recently.
We've had times like this when our children were younger but now I feel like there is something more.
Or it might just be me being sensitive. I'm nearly 50, I thought I'd got this relationship thing sorted!