to have burst into tears at work this morning

[SleepWalkingToTheGrave]

Nc for this.

Early miscarriage a few years ago. Horrid and so was the d&c.
Little one would have been 7 this summer.
I keep thinking about him/her and what they might have been like, whether they would look like me or DH. What their favorite Disney film would have been.

Saw a little boy, prob about 3 or 4 years old, today at work (I work in retail and he came to my till) and he was seriously cute, I mean he was beaming from ear to ear about spending his Xmas money and said "thank you have a nice day" so politely and turned and waved at me goodbye, in his little dungarees.
He and his mum looked so happy together and for some reason I just felt so tearful suddenly.
And pissed off that my child died and we haven't been able to get pregnant since. I have PCOS. Nothing has happened in 7 years.

We've just had a massive vet's bill for our cat (who I love to pieces and am terrified that I will lose her) I know she's only a cat but she's so important to me and I've had her since she was 7 weeks old. She has to go to the vets again next week and the vet needs to monitor her (she has a lump and the word "tumour" has been thrown around although we're not sure yet if it is).
DH and I had a row last night about money and that was playing on my mind too.

So after a particularly rude customer (elderly lady who slapped my hand away from her shopping when I put the wrong item in the wrong bag and snapped at me) I held it together until the end of my shift and then promptly burst into tears on the way to the staff room to get my coat. Don't know if anyone saw me or not.
There was no one in the staff room but when I came out I had mascara all over my cheeks

Sorry for the bloody long essay. Just had an awful day.

[MiddleClassProblem]

YANBU and sending you a cuddle x

[YouthHostellingWithChrisEubank]

Gosh, what a shitty day. Sending a hug, hope you get some serious relaxing done tonight x

[trickydickie]

yanbu. Hope you feel better soon x

[ValancyJane]

I'm sorry you had such an awful day. I really hope you get pregnant soon, and that your cat is okay

[timemaychangeme]

,. And an unmumsnetty hug. Sometimes things all get too much. Of course you weren't BU.

[banff82]

You are not unreasonable at all, I'm so sorry about your baby and your fertility problems I hope your cat gets better soon, be kind to yourself

[universallyhated]

Sorry you had a bad day OP. If it's any consolation, you weren't the only one to burst into tears at work today.