Have name changed.
Single working Mum, children have additional needs, I have medical problems. No respite, no help, hardly any local family. No support financially or otherwise from twat of an exh. While I am struggling my arse off to provide for our kids and sitting in a freezing cold house all day with coats and hats on because I work from home mostly and can only afford the heating on when the kids are home he is providing documentation to the csa that he cannot afford to pay anything for them despite posting pictures of thirty odd quid bottles of posh alcohol or designer clothes on his social media.
I am exhausted, no one will help me, we have been waiting forever for an appointment to see camhs again.
Elderly parents, both major health issues, one terminal and I am going to be responsible for their care shortly (only child) of course I will do it, of course I care but I am already exhausted.
I am fed up of being in pain, of being cold, of sitting in these four walls because I cannot get out anywhere. There is no local support.
The children are HARD work particularly the one with additional needs who has just hit puberty where everything is suddenly a massive battle all the time. The teenager has just hurt themselves running across the room to get to the door before me when I was going to the loo?? Nothing in the flaming house works properly, the washer, the hot water heater, the fire is bloody playing up , the wind has taken the tv ariel off and the kids are driving me mad as a result and I have just had e-bloody-nough tonight and so very fed up of doing it on my own and being constantly skint despite working.
God I feel so bloody pathetic whinging when there are people in places Syria and surrounding crossing seas and risking death to get half of what I have but I am just so bloody very tired.