Christmas and infertility

[cooperG]

AIBU to never want to do Christmas again? Have been ttc for three years now, started Dec 2012 and we were all starry eyed and "this might be our last Christmas alone" etc.

This is the first Christmas we've actually spent on our own, as I had a bit of an episode last year and didn't want to repeat it. Although I had a nice day with dh it just wasn't ... Christmassy, it felt odd.

I used to love Christmas and couldn't wait for it, and to have our own kids and start our own traditions, but I'm afraid that three years of this shit have turned me into a bitter old woman and I'll never enjoy it again even if we ever manage to have a child. Can I just cancel it indefinitely please?

Am with you there.

We've been ttc for coming up two years in March but I have wanted a child for much longer (am 38 now, met DH when I was 35). We've had three miscarriages. Ttc again now 😐

Currently working hard to have ttc stuff running along parallel/secondary to real life while we try to still be happy/have fun.

Christmas has actually been really nice, spent with family and just relaxing. I am trying not to think 2016 will be our year but more 'hopefully the next year or two will bring good things'.

Good luck to you x