Hi all. Just typed this all out and it crashed so here goes again but will try and keep it short. Since having my two children (2&3) I have become anxiouse about things. I'm overwhelmed that these two little people's lives are in my hands and its scarey, I'm sure we all feel this way at times. This evening a young lady came to the door obviously selling stuff as we saw her heading up our drive. Husband leapt up to answer as if he was going to take glee in saying 'no thanks' I told him to just do that or leave the door. It was dinner time and a bit busy/chaotic. He was out there for about 5 mins and she was showing her cleaning products off. (I am feeling better already just typing this and realising that I am most probably just being really stupid). He went off leaving the door wide open downstairs (I now know to get her some change). She said Im not begging, no one around here wants to help me, you all have your drive ways with lots of cars but no one will help me. My son has then gone to the door and my husband said t him 'get in!' She was walking off and thought he was talking to get then gave my husband a bit of lip, cue him barking 'get off of my property, if I want anything I will go the the shops!!' I'm then in tears petrified that she'll come back and get us, go back and tell her partner and do something to us, the house, I don't know! I'm massively pissed of with my husband as alough I was in the front room with the door closed so missed most of their original chat, I feel may have led her on a bit, I don't know. I'm sure he could have just immediately said thanks but no thanks. This isn't an is my DH an arse thread but back to my anxiety. He's away from early in the morning for the weekend and I'm now scared of staying here alone with the children incase they come back. I said to him imagine if that were me and I went home and told you a man started shouting at me. At times I just don't think he thinks about us and puts us at risk. I started crying telling him I'm worried they'll come back saying I think you antagonised her, you're not going to be here if they do, lots of tears from me. AIBU being scared staying at home now while he's away, wouldn't be so bad just me but it's having my babies here. Am I just being a stupid anxious worrier :(. I'm sorry I'm not sure what I am hoping for posting or what I am really asking/saying or if any of this even makes sense. I hate him going away as it is and don't sleep well. Pre children, I loved it!!! Tempted to go to a local hotel bit that brings other anxieties up. Ahh such an arse why didn't I get to the door and just say thank you but no thank you, bye bye.